the day that i was born

yesterday(25/3), i just celebrated my 19th birthday anniversary..well..i did came late to lecture.just before my lecturer arrived.it is shocking when my group sing a birthday song for me..it really heal my heart.but at the same time, tear my other part of heart.a lot.but still..thnx a lot guys.love u so much.i also did celebrate my birthday at night.with secret recipe's cake...(yummy! :3) n i really2..stuffed.haha! seriously.i think i can gain 5 kg instantly.and also, i received a lot of gifts from my family members.a laptop bag.shoes..clothes..(really nice!~)..a lamp..(with waxy substance in it..i like it's bubblesXD)..n last but not least..a plushy!!:3..a cute green rabbit.really cute.sooooooooo cute!XDthis time, i'll try not to let anyone touch it.haha!(can i?)..hehe..

But still...
People supposed to be happy during their birthday right? but not for me.i feel...empty.nothing special.i think..my birthday is my worst mood day.
i dont know why.but 1 thing tht i think makes me like this.my past.everytime when this day came, its like..a deja vu.i remembered wht happened last time.eventhough i didnt want to.c'mon la! just go forward!!=.=''

well,now i think i cant smile truthfully.it really hurts when i smile.my feelings get mixed.i dont know whts wrong or right.i dont know when can i overcome all of this.i cannot blame tht person.its not because of him.it just me.just me.my heart trembled when i'm near him.is it because he's like the person?or is it really because of him himself? now i really am confused with myself.i need someone.anyone to accompany me.always.

Bolero.

nice song..>.< hear it.feel it.

Aching.(like,huh??)

So, wht's aching? well..even i dunno wht hppened.really.here..let me list up wht's aching on me:

1. stomachache..(its hurting..really>.<)
2. headache..(i really should've slept early..dummer)
3. backache? (the floor is soooo.....cold comfortable
4. lastly..heartache.a.k.a sakit hati@hati trluka@..etc.

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xprlu nk tmbh 'ewww' la ek..nsihat utk ak jgk..:)

in.throw.duck.shern.

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